November 2009
8 posts
Pivotal Moment:
In Da Club. Lil Jon.
———————<3
“I like me blonde. I feel so much more kickass.”
– Angface.
really?
Dear Ashley,
Do you really wanna do this all over again? Do you really wanna push everyone away over one person freaking you out? Sure.
Sincerely,
Yourself.
“WE DIDN’T FUCKIN’ RUIN YOUR FALLUJAH DAY! FALLUJAH RUINED YOUR...”
– ashley/motherfuckin/harrison
i liiiiike.
Tom: Heyo
Ashley: Heya
Tom: Are you in Fayettenam?
Ashley: Ugh yes. I guess I am back. Idk how i got talked into staying here but I suppose am.
Tom: hahhahha. you must have done somethin bad in a previous life. way to go previous you.
Ashley: LOL! dangiiiiiiit. My sister talked me into i think. But Oklahoma is probably worse than here. to be honest ha
Tom: ouch. ah well fair enough, time to make the best of it. there should be enough business to start a portrait business. plus group photos-- birthday parties, platoon pictures etc. make the best of your time in purgatory
Ashley: yeah see i figured so too but until people figure out i am here i guess i need to do something ha.. it's seriously awful right now. NO ONE IS HERE
Tom: go paddle boat
Ashley: It's SO COLD!
Tom: i like siestas. i ought to move to spain so i can truly culturally appreciate them near the beach. in a little house.......or a shack
Ashley:
haha.. i would not do well living on the beach. i burn. within like half an hour. uugh
Tom: me too but it'd be worth it. every day would be like a vacation. every night watching the sky, the smells, the weather. its like squatting on the edge of passion, almost caught in it, but bound by responsibility. it'd be nice
Ashley: you make it sound pretty awesome lol. count me in. i do love the beach i just dont love the aftermath
Tom: well to dream a dream not so awesome would be like looking forward to night terrors/sorrow-- pursuit of happiness is the goal methinks, not so much the money
just the opportunity
Ashley: i suppose you're right.. i'm happy just anywhere, unless i'm hungry.. not good then lol..... or lonely... uuuuuugh i hate being lonely
Tom: haha yeah lonely sucks
Ashley: absolutely.
Tom: but its a motivator at the same time-iddnt it?
Ashley: loneliness?
Tom: ya. its like desire, ambition on a personal level
Ashley: hmm.. a motivator? possssibly. I kinda stall out and suck at life when i'm lonely.. I end up being a hermit and making it worse i have nooooo idea why.
Tom: sometimes it seems as if we've got lessons to learn from life and until we conquer or absorb them we endlessly repeat them like making the same mistakes same decisions, same boundaries and if there is no clash, no victory... we'll never shed that...snake skin
Ashley: i totally agree with that.. my biggest thing forever was i never ever wanted to be alone.. then i after i was for awhile mucho good things came from it.
still not my fave thing.. but it's necessary sometimes.
Tom: yes maam. agree. speaking of lonely, i am going to take that nap. you in?
Ashley: lol i wish. Enjoy.
Tom: if you say so. ^^ talk to ya later.